Heart Broken Day

  I'm really heart broken after seeing her having an intimate relationship with him. I tried very hard to convince myself this isn't true,their relationship isn't like that. Don't know the reason why I have to been through these endless spiky platform.

 The very first time I realised my feelings,that I really like her,I don't know how to express it,people often call me as "emo guy" or "cool guy". Don't know since when I became such an emotionless guy,until I saw her radiant smile,it's just....sunny....Even if the sky rains heavily, her smile can chase away the gloomy mood.These days just passed by without my conciousness.

  I made an oath to myself,if I can score well this time in exam,I'll definitely confess my feelings to her. I desired her very splendid smile that melts the ice in an instant. Until recently,which is days ago,she introduced her boyfriend to every friend,tagging him along to that place.

  The heartache just came very sudden, without knowing the fact she has a boyfriend.No actually I already knew it,I was just convincing myself that it's fake. The bitter feelings remained in my heart,that day I never talk to her,seeing her is just murdering and torturing my heart. I wouldn't look into her eyes,I even tried to avoid having a close distance with her.

  Well,this pain still remains till now,just not that...bitter already. From now on,I'll be fighting for God and my parents who put high hopes on me in SPM and trial exam.I'll definitely do my very to overcome every obstacle that is in my way.I'll show them I'm not weak hearted.

  Don't feel like revenging or treating her badly,because is my own fault.I shall just go on with God now :)

 

Recent activities

  It's been months since I last updated/logged in blogger.com.

 Exam will be over soon,speaking of which,I wish IT'S OVER.The final boss I need face is Chemistry and some science subjects for paper 1.

Nah,I did very bad for this time,I slightly have a chance to fail my biology and physics due to lack of diligence to study hard,never mind.I could just try harder next time.

Recently,my passion to anime is getting stronger.I started liking Sci-fi and action genre anime such as "A Certain Magical Index" and "A Certain Scientific Railgun".Can you imagine a world which every single person has a special ability? Such as teleport,control electric current flow,changing vectors,re-coordinate an object and regulates temperature of an object? On the other side, people from another world can use magic and spells,by using ritual circles or magical runes,magicians can summon legendary monsters and spells.As the academic city is advancing,magicians declared war against scientists since magicians mostly believe in God.Magicians try to destroy the science world which is corrupting the world.This anime is really related to Christianity.

Besides that,I'm also interested to "Fate/Zero" and "Fate Stay Night" which are also related to God.It's about a war,to acquire an item known as Holy Grail which grants a person any wish.The war is known as Holy Grail War and only happens once after 7 years.Only 7 magicians are allowed to participate the Holy Grail War,assistant is provided for each magician to win the war,they are known as Servants which are legendary heroes such as Alexander the Great,Gilgamesh,Hercules and Arthuria Pendragon.Each servant has a class which determines their strength,power,agility and mana such as Saber,Berserker,Archer,Caster,Lancer and Rider.

Why am I telling these?I know no ones understand unless they watched those animes.But it doesn't matter,because I found the answer for my belief after playing a game with PS2 game console.

"People choose to hear what they want to hear and believe in what they want to believe".So why bother those who doesn't want to believe in God? I did my best to tell them about him,just pray and tell him more if the person willing to listen.

"Two in harmony surpasses one in perfection." I was really into deep thought for this sentence,but I think it's pretty true.But without perfection,where is the harmony?

Everything is confusing,you don't know either the history is the truth or legend.Therefore,I chose to believe what I want to believe.

Too much crappy stories and sentences in this post.This is the end of tonight's story,thank you for reading it with patience,I appreciate your visit.

The First Time

Ladies and gentlemen once again I welcome you to read my blog,

  I remembered something,that day....when i started watching anime.The 1st anime I watched is Digimon Adventures.Eventually,"Pokemon","Doraemon","Crayon Shin Chan" and other Digimon series joined into my life,that time I was about 8 years old.

  Now,I became an otaku who loves anime so much,although I don't buy any anime figurines and stuffs but I still love them so much.My "otaku blood" awakened after watching "Angel Beats!" and I was 14-15 years old boy at www.goodanime.net.An amazing story about friendship and love with funny scenes(comedy).

 After 4 months later,I met a very unique anime,known as "Highschool of The Dead",one of the most perverted and very psychological affected anime,it's all about zombies the most,some highschool students managed to survive by not giving up each other and encouraging team members.But some ended up as zombies' meal....

  Months later,I really get into animes,as I continue my otaku life with "Nurarihyon no Mago","To Love Ru","Freezing","Infinite Stratos" and a lot more which released last year and months ago.You know?Anime is showing a lot of meaningful things in life,but some are meaningless and perverted. You may go google it for the picture,Examples: "Seikon no Qwaser" and "Sora no Otoshimono".There are a lot of perverted scenes causing me struggles a lot before I become a Christian.

  Those two animes,I was about to complete it,but I stopped in the midway,I just don't know what to do,I don't feel like want to continue playing the video.Cant be deny that I played eroges,can consider it as porno games,you can have a harem of girls in the game,but in the end,it's still meaningless...

  That's life,from child to youth,youth to adult,things change in time...The reason I updated this blog is to admit to things that I did.....running away won't change anything.But still,I will watch animes,but no more eroges,I would replace it with VN(Visual Novel) if I really want to play so badly...

  Time for bed,nights....

  

A New Journey of My Life

  Ladies and gentlemen,I thank you for willing take your time to read my blog....May the hallowed father in heaven bless you.

  So,do you like your CNY school holidays?Me?Not really...but I enjoyed having a fun time with my best pals,Jia Wang,Eugene,last but not least which is Wai Jun ,although I remain silent sometime,but I really glad they came to my place to had fellowship with me.

  The next day,I went to Wai Jun's house,his mum cooked spaghetti,nuggets and some refreshments to welcome our visit,but the absent of Jia Wang don't make me enjoy a lot.We played "Dance Dance Revolution 2" together,I can't believe Wai Jun's bro,Wai Kin can dance as well as him,and even better than me.

  Before CNY ends,my church,Petra Gospel Centre had few events....such as competing to eat a mandarin orange and watching videos with facts about Jesus Christ,who died on the cross for our sins,we are the fallen,and yet we live happily because of him.

  Bible study plan started weeks ago,my new teacher,Robin Loh Yuke Bin who is a understanding teacher taught me about Prayers,Forgiveness and facts....It is an honor to be his student.

  I appreciate your visit on this blog.

 

It's been weeks since I last updated my blog,
I went to Comic Fiesta on 17&18,but I skipped my church trip.
Anyway,it was fun,a lot of Otakus enjoyed a lot there,same here :D
I regretted why I was so shy to take photos with the cosplayers.missed a lot of good photos.
So I promised next year,I will get a lot of cosplayer photos!

Here's some photos...enjoy!

She's cute,but too bad no smile on the face :(

I saw my ex-schoolmate,Alson Leong,he's handsome right,haha xD

A cosplayer was drinking a cup of cold juices,my face looks tired.... xD

*Troll face* *Drum rolls* Is my show :D

From left,Erza,me,Juvia and Lucy :D

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*On December 24*

In the afternoon,I watched the show,"The Greatest Show on Earth",and yes it is! Louis was amazing in playing the role.Then I went to caroling,church members and me blessed the house host and they served us with refreshments and delicious dishes.

*Night of 24 December*

Kong Hao: *Slacking*

Richard : *Draws near*

Kong Hao: Hi

Richard: Hey,can you help me clean up the church later?

Kong Hao: Sure,so who will help later too?

Richard: Not sure yet,but I believe later they will help...

As the conversation is on going,most of the members went out for Midnight supper,just some of them remained in church to help the clean up.

I was too tired,Richard told me that I carried 12 bucks of water,no wonder I feel like my backbone is breaking down....

And yes,this is the first time I saw Richard so caring,hardworking and diligence of him.I guess my help wasn't a waste of time to know him...

He worked till morning of 5AM,but I slept on 3AM.

*On December 25 Morning*

Slacker like me usually sleeps more,almost late for morning worship...

I sat behind,Richard passed by,we greeted each other...

Richard: Why you sit behind?

Kong Hao: Is there a problem?

Richard: No,but sit in front is better...

Kong Hao: Okay then...

I followed him to the front for seat.

As I listened to the preacher,I fell asleep and Richard woke me up,haha xD

*Afternoon of December 25*

After lunch,I went to a friend's house,with Jia Wang,Zec Chou and a female friend.

I was playing with the dog,looking at it and fondling his head :3

*Night of December 25*

"The Greastest Show in Earth" is performed once again,but the last show was better...

My sickness is getting worse,sore throat,sneezing,caught cold and thirsty....

Then I went back with Zec Chou(driver),Jia Wang and Karen.

As I reached my homeland,I drank some water and on my computer.

Kong Hao: Let's call this a day....

I turned off my computer about 1AM....

Prayed to heavenly father and slept....

Chaos of Life

What's up,guys...

It's been a while since the last update of my blog.

Sometimes things won't do as you wish,neither paying efforts nor desire for it.

I'm a gamer,not an expert or a pro.Yes,means to be 100% lifeless.

Something started changing my lifestyle a little bit by a little bit.

To me,he is a mystery,I'm not good enough for him yet.

So I tried to read his words everyday.

Yeah,pretty fun sometimes,but serving him will be tiring.

But when you got him,everything will just be fine.

Recently,my sister cried again.

Yeah,I wanted to give her a slap or a punch on her face,it's annoying.

But I can't do that,she is living without him,without a guider means to be no light in her world.

So I decided to bring her to my church on this 25 December,to change her life.

Therefore, I pray that she can face the conflicts in her life.

Girls are just a troublesome creatures sometime,especially my sister.

But some of them are different,they give you warmth in the moment that you need.

I started feel that,girls aren't that bad.

Sometimes they are cute too.

But compare with anime girls,they are still in 2nd place.

Please don't be angry when you read this post,I apologise first.

Because I want to change the negative feelings for reality,I lived in ideal world for too long.

It's been 4 years,12 hours per day.....

Wish I can change a bit next year :)

A new month

Love and hate,it's because of December!

Damn! I hate it,I need to get back to tuition classes,my enjoyment will be postpone for sometime.I'm enjoying Persona 3&4,Mana Khemia 1&2 and DBZ Infinite World and Ar Tonelico 1&2.I play almost 12 hours per day.Oh! Those are PS2 games,my father bought it with a named price,RM435.A set of controllers and 2 memory cards with 8MB.Actually I hate everything in my life,I never wish to be born,I wish I could sleep forever.

Christmas is coming,my church,Petra Gospel Centre wanted to recuit new members,anyone who is interested can contact me anytime but not anywhere.Come and join us in the "Greatest Show on the Earth".It's meaningless to celebrate Christmas without Christ.Without Christ 25 December means to be zero,so come and enjoy yourself! You may bring other friends too :D

Recently,my headache is getting worse day by day.Addicted with games and can't stop playing it even it's time for meal.I wonder : Did I think too much for upcoming events in the game?I think so... Persona 3&4 is required an intelligent brain to unlock special events in order to defeat the bosses.The game said that,it needs 70 hours+(approximately) to complete the game,I used almost 30 hours to play it in 5 days.So it's still long to end the game! That's what makes ideal so interesting.